"membacanya satu kenikmatan,menghafaznya satu kegembiraan
tetapi menjaganya satu bebanan yang tak berkesudahan"

my creature....

i need something that can sooth me at the moment 'cause i've been secluding myself the whole day in New Hall.
this speaker might do the trick but i'm gonna have to wait till working day, monday maybe?
hope not anytime later than that.....
it'll be just the right time, i'm freed from the transitory torture that morning!




**just so everyone know, i'm literally mute for a while**
***stressed***

**

WARNING!!

:.just two days to go, and i'm barely prepared to even pass the paper.:

somebody please hit me!

i'm sorry, not that i don't do the talking but it's just the way i am. even if i were to speak, people just keep it reserved. i too become reserved....very very much!

what are u looking at??

fighting!!

Dapatkan Mesej Bergambar di Sini

aku yg kelupaan....

selalu, aku lupa Pencipta-ku, biar diri ni hanyut dalam arus waktu - tak berarah. ya Allah, kenapa manusia mudah lupa? kenapa aku mudah lupa?

00:33 ;study seperti dah terbengkalai, asyik ter-usik oleh internet, lagu2, tv, kad TCG, rindu adik di Kemasul. macam dah nak give up dan balik je Malaysia. terbayang kat mana tapak ni berjejak 5 tahun lagi..Manchester? Malaysia? atau ajal lebih dulu menyeru?


teringat; bro abd rahman cite pasal Abu Bakar Siddiq yg pd hari pertama dia masuk islam, dia bawak 5 org. hebat2 jumpa Rasulullah s.a.w untuk bersyahadah (uthman affan, talhah, saad abi waqas, zubair al-awwam, abd rahman auf).


hebat x nama2 yg 5 tu? kan? kan?

antara mereka, ramai yg masih muda, belasan tahun tapi yakin untuk terima islam, menggalas syahadah kebenaran. tanggungjawab seorang yg tahu erti syahadah itu sendiri.

reflect; apa aku orang lemah? bacul?

walau aku lahir dengan fitrah islam tu sendiri, sudah cukupkah usahaku, amalku bergelar muslim? atau aku gagal?

ya muqallibal qulub, tsabbit qalbi a'la deenika

great deal come with great prerequisite

TCG is the only thing that would pique my interest needless of any persuasion. TRUE. why? no particular reason, at first, i was interested to know more about it( in form 4) from my friend just because of the anime aired on the television looks cool to me. as we go along i came love it as well as one of the best way for me to practice my english (no drama here..).

alas, it was a good bargain spending time and wee bit of cash for new unoriginal TCG cards..hehe..i improved a lot, lots of the peculiar words on the cards description catch my attention and teach me to understand the language that i hate most (sebab macam mengada-ngada bila wanita2 disekeliling bercakap...maaf, saya bukan sexist..hehe)

the picture i put up is one of the latest card in the TCG booster packs release in 2009. the description is quite a mouthful isn't it? probably to a lower secondary student( in rural area i suppose). but it's really a great way to teach though if you can contain that obsession for the TCG itself and focussed more on the goodside(learning i mean).

i taught my younger brother (he's having SPM this year!), one because i need a partner to play with but also to indirectly, without his awareness, teach him english. it's the least that i can do as a brother. indeed, the first year was OK, he got beat like hundreds of time by me...haha.(sometimes i cheated though..) but not anymore, now he can explain it better than me at times(i was just to lazy to scrutinize and abide the game rule..lol)..

well, i'm glad...

-whack-

kenapa?

saya selalu berfikir, sengaja. kalau tak otak saya akan mengecut dan hilang fungsi.

takut tak?
pagi ni, saya terfikir,
kenapa malaysian kekal malaysian di tanah UK ni?

hebat betul didikan mereka!

saya tertanya-tanya,
''apa yang aku mau disekeliling aku?''
jawapannya kabur.

aku dambakan suasana rohani,
mungkin?
tapi mustahil setakat ini,
kerohanian yang palsu,
direka-reka,
sedikit menyeleweng mungkin,
yang mudah disulitkan.


mungkin saya stereotaip?
kalau betul saya salah la kan?

tapi,
saya nampak malaysian dikeliling saya sangat malaysian!
mentaliti mereka pada tahap yang saya tak dapat gapai,
bodohkah saya yang jahil ini?
cara mereka nampak betul...tapi............saya ragu,
patutkah saya menjadi mereka?
tiru gaya dan cara...

kenapa saya tak dikalangan muslim dan bukan malaysian?

teman, bila kita akan tiba di puncak?

subtle somewhat significant

ye. thats how i'd describe how my life transcend. the past few years, maybe 4 years, brought me to acknowledge that life is more than just breathin' in and out, or finding good spouse and build a family or work to get big paycheck, stocking wealth for time when we are aged, sluggish, lonely.

there's a more important task for me, for every one of us.




it's not like metamorphosis, no conspicuous change, i feel i'm somewhat the same person but things are just plain different.

maybe how i see things? NOPE..i'm still subjective, uncertain and rocky. i went through my day with plans, but only 50% of them really implemented. ridiculously horrid for a perfectionist, lucky i'm not one!

0r..how i lead my life? DON'T THINK SO..i'm not getting any softer than i used to, mainly because i was never hard to begin with. but sure things change, only today that it cross my mind to give a thought about it.

i was never good with excuses, hence, many things get screwed all the time. still, i don't give any!

i was never good with words, so please bear with my silence. but it seems people think of me differently. my circle of friends now would definitely rate me adversely from my past circle of friends.

some matters are just hard to explain. a burden or obligation needs more than just an action.

i won't mention how, what or when things change. people might call me extreme if i make it obvious. i just hope there are those around me who can understand and help me up. i REALLY HOPE so...

just to share( credits: ukur kira)

I sow an intention, I reaped an act
I sow an act, I reaped a habit
I sow a habit, I reaped a character
I sow a character, I reaped a destiny

STILL, I DON'T THINK ANYTHING CHANGE BUT IT DOES!!

color your heart white!

Today
before you say an unkind word – Think of someone who can’t speak.

Before

you complain about the taste of your food – Think of someone
who has nothing to eat.

Before

you complain about your husband or wife – Think of someone
who’s crying out to Allah for a companion.

Today

before you complain about life – Think of someone who died
too early on this earth.

Before

you complain about your children – Think of someone who
desires children but they’re barren.

Before
you argue about your dirty house someone didn’t clean or
sweep – Think of the people who are living in the streets.

Before
whining about the distance you drive Think of someone who
walks the same distance with their feet.

And when

you are tired and complain about your job -Think of the unemployed, the disabled, and those who wish they had your job.

But
before you think of pointing the finger or condemning
another – Remember that not one of us is without imperfection.

And when
depressing thoughts seem to get you down – Put a smile on
your face and think: you’re alive and still around.

credits: heartsandhugs.wordpress.com

rahmat Allah juga yang menjadi kuncinya...

al-kisah, ada seorang lelaki ini yang kandas di sebuah pulau yang asing. hanya dia dan semata-mata sokongan2 untuk hidup. hiduplah dia dengan istiqamah beribadah, memuji Allah sekian hari, minggu, bulan, tahun. sememangnya dia terpelihara dari segala maksiat mahupun godaan dunia.

umurnya hingga mencecah 50-an.

**cut the story short**

dia bertanya;''ya Allah, adakah aku dimasukkan syurga kerana amalan2ku yang selama ini?''

lalu,sebiji matanya diambil dan dijadikan timbangan, masya'Allah, beratnya sebiji mata lelaki itu lebih berat dari segala amalannya selama ini.

pengajaran: mata kita adalah nikmat Allah, rahmat Allah. cuba bayangkan kita pejam kedua-dua biji mata kita dan cuba berjalan dia khalayak ramai? apa anda rasa? saya pernah cuba. hasilnya tak menggembirakan... sesungguhnya, kita tak boleh lupa bahawa Allah itu yang berkuasa memberi kita nikmat, hidayah mahupun rahmatnya. jangan berputus harapan, terus-menerus dengan doa kita.

Allah Maha Mengetahui past, present and future. mungkin semua perkara itu pre-determined tetapi bukanlah makannya kita tak berkuasa menentukan kehendak kita. cuma Allah mengetahui future setiap dari kita maka dituliskan apabila kita lahir ke dunia oleh malaikat.



Berimanlah walau sejenak, sesaat mahupun sekelip mata.




p/s: just me rambling, reminding myself(WHACK)

recently new

what's new about me+


-determination; well, too rhetorical to put it here so i'll save it for myself. lately things have not been going smoothly and i'm still stuck with the ol' habit and attitude.

-laptop contents; just restored my backup dated 20/12/2009. i'm not back to square one at least, still have some of my stuff that i really2 need but also lotsa trifling files. need to get rid of them quick.

-diet; bought a fresh bottle of lemonised honey from Morrisons. cost me quite a pretty penny but i think worth it. my sore throat is relieved and my voice is back! a cup of honey-lemon-tea every night instead of teh tarik might do the trick to get a better day from now on...:D

-blog background wallpaper - it took me a while to figure out how to change it, the html codes were very perplexing that i had a terrible headache once finished.


still, i'm demented by green!

-whack-