do you realize when we become too indulged with putting down ourself, and we we didn't even notice it until it has reached almost irreversible state, everything around us just turn into very very bland objects? i do.
every time i pick up a text book, sit down and try to crack on some materials they just put me off. EVERY SINGLE TIME!!! i know my room is not pitch black. i know it's not cloudy or rainy or stormy out there. i know i am not blind which i am very grateful of. BUT, my mind is simply blank.
do i have to do this?
i mean THIS!! hitting on my keyboards, ranting on this mute wall of my blog, this life-less laptop screen everytime i hit a wall. it's irking me.
well, maybe my problem is not like pictured by the cartoon but still. let's put the female as my problems. i am a scaredy-cat when it comes to dealing with my problems. simply because they matter to me, they will influence what sort of reaction pulled up by people around me and i'm not liking the expressions they have on their face. screw them. screw my thought!to be honest, i do know i'm overthinking things when i should be rolling on the job i'm obliged to do. hitting the grades i'm supposed to get. working on my flaws (comm skills, anti-soc-ness,confidence, speech prob etc. as the list goes).
reformation starts with ourself.
ourself=myself, in this case.
i will be very sorry for myself when go back to this post in the future as it's so vain, devoid of any intellectual points or any self-motivating material. and the contents just show how shallow my current self is.
muhasabah. muhasabah. muhasabah.
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