i am one abstruse person. no LOL.
yeah? try guessing what's in my head. ( don't give me 'A BRAIN' )
hardly anyone find me amusing, and i'm not surprised as i expected it. emotionally up-down-high-low, i would kill if someone spite on my principle. not literally. i'd normally just kill the conversation and come away.
but don't worry, i never built any fortress around my heart to stave off people ( i'm a scardy cat ) so sadness and joy can come knocking my door, touch N' go more or less.
***
i bumped into some hermetic writing. read them, but no input was computed to my brain, such complexity. but i learnt new words - hermetic - difficult to comprehend, pertaining Gnostic writings.
maybe i'm too simple.
maybe i'm actually easy to be understood.
***
ya. memang aku ada banyak benda nak cakap, tapi tak sesuai kalau main lepas kat public (facebook) atau kawan2 se-uni. entah, rasa memang diorang takkan faham. aku salah jugak, tak cuba langsung, mana tau diorang sebenarnya lebih dari faham.
aku masih dalam proses nak berubah. 360 degree.
silent devimon cam aku ni payah sikit. kalau share, kang orang judgemental plak. simpan je nanti jadi racun, tuba, virus...makan dalam ni memang lama nak sembuh la jawabnya.
apa definisi deenil islam terasa masih shaky.
ingat senang ke nak berubah sorang2? environment dah la sgt2 tak kondusif, lepas tu sambil nak ubah diri kena jugak remind orang lain. ilmu dapat takkan bakhil kot..
tapi tu semua maklumat. bukan pengetahuan lagi..
(maklumat=info masuk otak je, pengetahuan=info masuk, faham, boleh praktik)
memang cardiac-respi-abdo-limbic haywire aku jadinya, serba salah serba tak kena. nasib tak ting tong lagi.
wallahuaalam...
the change will come. slowly but surely.
aku doa aku selalu atas jalan islam yg lurus. atas jalan jihad. atas jalan dakwah.
doakan aku.
may Allah bless!
yeah? try guessing what's in my head. ( don't give me 'A BRAIN' )
hardly anyone find me amusing, and i'm not surprised as i expected it. emotionally up-down-high-low, i would kill if someone spite on my principle. not literally. i'd normally just kill the conversation and come away.
but don't worry, i never built any fortress around my heart to stave off people ( i'm a scardy cat ) so sadness and joy can come knocking my door, touch N' go more or less.
***
i bumped into some hermetic writing. read them, but no input was computed to my brain, such complexity. but i learnt new words - hermetic - difficult to comprehend, pertaining Gnostic writings.
maybe i'm too simple.
maybe i'm actually easy to be understood.
***
ya. memang aku ada banyak benda nak cakap, tapi tak sesuai kalau main lepas kat public (facebook) atau kawan2 se-uni. entah, rasa memang diorang takkan faham. aku salah jugak, tak cuba langsung, mana tau diorang sebenarnya lebih dari faham.
aku masih dalam proses nak berubah. 360 degree.
silent devimon cam aku ni payah sikit. kalau share, kang orang judgemental plak. simpan je nanti jadi racun, tuba, virus...makan dalam ni memang lama nak sembuh la jawabnya.
apa definisi deenil islam terasa masih shaky.
ingat senang ke nak berubah sorang2? environment dah la sgt2 tak kondusif, lepas tu sambil nak ubah diri kena jugak remind orang lain. ilmu dapat takkan bakhil kot..
tapi tu semua maklumat. bukan pengetahuan lagi..
(maklumat=info masuk otak je, pengetahuan=info masuk, faham, boleh praktik)
memang cardiac-respi-abdo-limbic haywire aku jadinya, serba salah serba tak kena. nasib tak ting tong lagi.
wallahuaalam...
the change will come. slowly but surely.
aku doa aku selalu atas jalan islam yg lurus. atas jalan jihad. atas jalan dakwah.
doakan aku.
may Allah bless!
small changes please?? hehe
No comments:
Post a Comment